Agape Love

Felicia Roddy

Hello my name is Felicia Roddy. I am 39 years old and I want to tell you about my experience when I gave my life back to Christ. I was invited to go to a women’s retreat by a fellow co-worker; she went the year before, and I was blessed to go the year after.

April 25, 2013 was the weekend that changed my life. The Country Walk of Emmaus, which was held at Broadmoor Methodist Church, was a retreat that was for women and men. That year it was walk number 67 that I was on, where we learned about the different types of Agape Love, the different kinds of grace that was sufficient, and the ways of God.

While I was on this walk learning about the love of God, I was also learning how to love again. I had a lot of anger issues and some hatred in my heart from a situation with my son and this young lady he was dealing with. So this retreat was just what I needed, and I’m sure it was God’s design to get me there so He can break all that was built up, and be able to start ministering to me again. My heart was so heavy and burdened down that I couldn’t open up to anyone, not my husband or my kids. I felt like no one understood what I was feeling or going through. So, when I got to the retreat I was surprised of how many people were there. With the same agenda of getting back what they lost, their spirit was searching just like mine. We all had some things we were dealing with, but our sisterhood helped get us there being each other’s support system just being able to listen without being questioned or looked down upon.

That weekend no one was able to bring anything that would distract them from spending time with God. Electronic devices were not allowed, just you and God and the people around you. So, of course, this was my first time being away from home and cut off from the outside world. I have never left my kids at the time they were 16, 15, and 13. My first night I was okay but by the second I was crying like crazy just trying to understand what was going on with me. Well half way through the 2nd day I was okay still praying and meditating on God’s word. On the 3rd night we rededicated our life back to Christ, and that was the night that tears would not stop flowing. I stayed in the chapel and prayed until something happened. When I got up I was so relieved that God had answered my prayers and helped me to see the error of my ways.

These people whom I have met while I was on this walk were my new found family. We ate, slept, praised, worshipped and enjoyed talking about the greatness of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. The love was so overwhelming that I couldn’t stand it. I finally realized that God can do the impossible, and He will make you be still and listen. At the end of this long journey I finally gave my life back to Him. My sponsor had one task to do, and I really thought that he didn’t come through because of the way my family was, but he did and we received a cross and some other things. But most important of all to me, was the letters he asked my family to write for me to let me know how important I was and how much I meant to them. At the end of this walk I got 8 letters and each one of them were near and dear to me.

That weekend I knew what I was missing. Once I figured that out, God helped me get through it. I cried so much that weekend not only was I cut off from the rest of the world, but I was able to put all of my time and energy into loving on God. Being back in His presence made me know exactly where I was in my walk with Him. I was closer to God that weekend than I have been my whole adult life.

So now when I encounter any problems or situations, I go to my prayer place with no interruptions and fall on my face and start praying and spending time with my creator who has brought me such a long way.

The young lady and I get along so much better now and the hatred that I had in my heart is no longer there. The anger issue has been worked on and to this very day, this young lady is just like one of my own daughters. She and my son have a little boy, so now I am a grandmother.

Look what God has done in my life and so many lives of others, which I have come in contact with at the end of the retreat. They asked me how I would go back and tell people about my encounter with God. I simply replied that I am not good at talking, but that I would put up some of the things that they gave me in my office. When people noticed and asked about them, I would tell them all about my awesome experience with the Agape Love that I was shown throughout the entire weekend. I was able to be quiet and listen to the voice of God without any distractions, and last but not least how God moves in ways that you and I can only imagine. That was also the first time that I have given Him all of me. Not a day goes by that I don’t worship or praise Him for all that He has done and is doing. I hope that this was an inspiration to someone.